Thursday, July 10, 2003 11:17 p.m.
just came back from having dinner with a bunch of people at swensens. was supposed to be something of a farewell dinner for tao sun - he's leaving for hong kong this sunday.
it seems like everyone's leaving. tao sun's leaving this sunday, kim left last saturday, and so did pk. dino is leaving for canada... and i'm not even including those that have left already. and to top it all off... it'll be my turn next year. it seems like the time in which our paths cross is so short... but yet sometimes its so significant. the saddest thing however, is that you wonder if you will ever see these people again. and even if your paths do cross in the future, things will never be the same. people get new lives, new friends... and no matter how much they say they won't, they forget. not saying that anyone is to blame... on the contrary, people don't want to forget... at least i don't. but i guess its something in us, perhaps a very human imperfection... the inadequacy of human memory and the sustainability of emotion.
but nevertheless, i had a fun time tonight. stuffed. as usual. after having downed half an earthquake at swensens (for those who have never experienced the orgasmic pleasures of an earthquake - its 8 scoops of ice cream with 8 different toppings, served with cherries and whipped cream) *drool*, we sat around and chatted for about 3 hours. its amazing how much you can find to talk about among people who aren't even in the same class or cca or any other group. i just realized today that half of the people at the dinner table were people that i never was formerly introduced to, but with whom i just struck up conversations with... friends' friends and stuff like that. its pretty amazing... heh. well at least to me. haha.
Monday, July 7, 2003 06:02 p.m.
guess who's returned from the grave? yes... yours truly... haha. my utmost apologies to all those people who have been bugging me to update my blog for the past month and a bit... i guess i've just been terribly lazy and whiny, so i wanted to spare people from hearing my whining online. ok... actually thats a lie... i was just lazy... :P
day off from school tomorrow, youth day, and i feel so relieved. i don't know why though... its not as if i'm working really hard in school. on the contrary, i think i'm currently the slackest person in class. i know its pretty bad, but somehow i can't find the motivation to do anything. when i finally manage to force myself to sit down to read or do some work... my mind will end up wandering after awhile... and sometimes i find myself just staring into blank space. its happening a lot more often now, and i'm starting to get a bit worried. i never had so much problems focusing before... maybe its time i take a break from all this. this whole emotional rollercoaster...
i can't sleep tonight
everybody saying everything is alright
still i can't close my eyes
i'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lies
sunny days... o.... whee have you gone?
i get the strangest feeling... you belong...
why does it always rain on me?
Thursday, May 22, 2003 03:55 p.m.
had the most hilarious time yesterday with chin. we went to plaza sing to hunt for a birthday prsent for roger... and came across loads of interesting stuff. on the way we bumped into adrian and audrey who were heading towards the same place to catch matrix reloaded. they're a pretty fun bunch... and really sweet too.
after much deliberation, we ended up at Mos Burger for lunch. we came to this conclusion after a long process of elimination. KFC, Macs and Long John's being no competition for the japanese fast food chain... is it japanese? *ponders* anyway... after stuffing ourselves... we proceeded on our quest for the perfect present for roger...
roaming from store to store... browsing through kids toys... to sporting apparel... to female lingerie... we finally stumbled upon the perfect store that had anything and everything we were looking for. it left us in stitches even after we'd left the shop for almost fifteen minutes. i can't wait to see the look on roger's face when he gets his present(s).
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spent the whole of today reading, as i decided this morning at 6am that it was pointless to go to school. besides, i woke up feeling like death warmed over, with a splitting headache. the idea of dragging myself out of bed to spend a useless 7 hours in school just didn't seem the least bit appealing. so i've been reading about the russian revolution since ten this morning. i've got lenin, milyunov and trotsky floating around in my brain. leaving at six thirty for the esplanade. the acjc string ensemble is performing... looking forward to it. at least it will be an escape from reality for awhile... :)
Tuesday, May 6, 2003 08:31 p.m.
Sometimes we need soppy old love songs to help us get over hurt. go figure.
the sky has lost its colour
the sun has turned to grey
at least that's how it feels to me
whenever you're away
i crawl up in a corner
as i watch the minutes pass
each one brings me closer to
the time when you'll be back
i can't take the distance
i can't take the miles
i can't take the time until the next time i see you smile
i can't take the distance
and i'm not ashamed
i can't take a breath without saying your name
and i can brave a hurricane
and still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down
but i can't take the distance
i still believe in feelings
but sometimes i feel too much
i make believe you're close to me
but it ain't close enough
not nearly close enough...
Tuesday, April 29, 2003 03:44 p.m.
spent an utterly useless day in school today...
my econs tutor was absent.... so that gave us two free periods. i had a free period for math, and another for mother tongue since i've already dropped both. gp was pointless... as all gp lessons are... and to add to it, today was reading period. basically you have a classroom of 17 and 18 years olds reading back editions of time and national geographic... laughing at photos of osama and african tribal women. sometimes i wonder how i survive in a class with seventeen guys... history lecture was pointless cos i didn't bring my lecture notes... and during the only period in which i COULD have learnt something (war literature), i had to give an (inpromtu) presentation on 'how to tell a true way story'.
brilliant.
i really should have stayed home today. i was lying in bed at 5:30am, contemplating on the pros and cons of skipping school today. after much thought, i realized that friday would be a much better option... considering thurs is labour day. i could actually have a self-proclaimed long weekend. plus, i thought that today would be somewhat productive... but boy was i wrong...
had a great sji party over the weekend at my place. was a pretty last minute affair... but it turned out a whole lot better than expected. not to mention that we over-budgeted... so theres about thirty bucks floating in the class fund. haha. more money to pay for our stacks of history and lit handouts....
smoke in your eyes (bringing the song to an all new level...) and the smell of charcoal mixed with burnt chicken wings... smarting eyes and tinge of alcohol on breath. the heat of the barbeque burns into your skin and you can feel your pores almost bubbling in the intensity...
sitting around in the living room after dinner... yes... all thirty of us... we talked cock and bitched about teachers. WQ was there and he claimed indifference... but i'm sure he was enjoying himself. hahaha. he's a pretty funky teacher... really glad to have him as our form tutor. he actually gives a damn about his students... and thats really uncommon these days. he's one teacher that has my full respect and admiration.
anyway... gonna go try do something about my econs. test on wednesday... and i know absolutely zilch. cheerios~